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Wilting Flowers

Come out swinging

I've been in this funky mood for a while where I feel like I spend so much of my time justifying and defending myself. It is this constant wailing in my head that changes everyone's words into "you're wrong" instead of "you're different." I feel like the only words that come out of my mouth lately are explaining myself in such great detail that I lose my focus. ("I like all ice cream, well, except sherbet, but sherbet isn't really ice cream...")

So, I've stopped talking. I hold everything in. I don't tell anyone. Because I feel its safer to do that than to be attacked or over-analyzed or every word I say picked apart and examined for the underlying subtleties that don't exist.

I'm tired, y'all. I need a break. My brain throbs.

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*HUGS*

I feel like the only words that come out of my mouth lately are explaining myself in such great detail that I lose my focus.

I've felt that to- to the point that I literally forget why I'm talking. Who's making you feel this way?

Hello

No one in particular. It's really coming from all directions. I guess that's just a part of being "misunderstood", as it were.

Re: Hello

If they misunderstanfd you, Fuck 'em.
I'm tired, y'all. I need a break.

I'm sorry to hear that sweetie... I hope you get one... If it's any consulation, I've been feeling the same way lately...

Thanks :)

Thanks :)

4:48

what's wrong with your lj clock? It says it's currently around 8... It's not 8 here and it's not 8 there so where are they getting that?

Re: 4:48

The lj clock on comments is in the wrong time. Its an lj thing. The only person who I personally know who fixed their journal is userillusion. I threatened to, but I'm lazy so I never did.

Re: 4:48

I'll have to check that on mine... is it really difficult to do?