Brandi (youphoric) wrote,

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Come out swinging

I've been in this funky mood for a while where I feel like I spend so much of my time justifying and defending myself. It is this constant wailing in my head that changes everyone's words into "you're wrong" instead of "you're different." I feel like the only words that come out of my mouth lately are explaining myself in such great detail that I lose my focus. ("I like all ice cream, well, except sherbet, but sherbet isn't really ice cream...")

So, I've stopped talking. I hold everything in. I don't tell anyone. Because I feel its safer to do that than to be attacked or over-analyzed or every word I say picked apart and examined for the underlying subtleties that don't exist.

I'm tired, y'all. I need a break. My brain throbs.
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